#but i didn't have 'two friends become jealous of my relationship and try to force me into an unhealthy dynamic i'm deeply uncomfortable

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roosterforme's Bradley Bradshaw one-shots masterlist (Rooster x Reader)

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Rooster x Reader one-shot fics:

A Nice, Big Rooster Rooster is surprised to run into you on North Island. He's not, however, surprised to find that he still wants you as much as always.

I Still Want You Bradley had been an idiot when it came to you. He still wanted you, but did you still want him?

I Like Your Voice You and Bradley recognize each other by your voices.

Benefits Bradley spends a long weekend in Mexico, enjoying the beach and your body.

I'll Take You There Bradley's best friend is moving to San Diego, and she asks him for a little help.

Why Do They Call You Rooster? When another girl asks Rooster how he got his call sign, you make sure she knows how big he is and who he's with.

Go Slow When you tell Bradley why you're nervous, he makes sure to go slow.

Couches, Floors and Beds You had reached your boiling point with your roommate, Bradley Bradshaw. 

Frustrated Rooster is kind enough to help Hangman's ex-girlfriend when she's feeling frustrated. 

Stay on Your Knees When Bradley messes up again, he’s more than willing to beg.

Hot For Teacher  You knew it was against policy. You wouldn’t bend the rules for anyone else. But when it came to Rooster Bradshaw, you threw all caution to the wind.

Red Flags, Green Flags Hangman complains about his date’s red flags, but Bradley thinks this girl sounds amazing. 

Can I Have My Shirt Back? You didn't usually invite guys home with you after a night out, but this one was always going to be an exception. 

You Deserve an Overachiever Bradley is forced to come to terms with the fact that he wants to replace your boyfriend with himself and give you proper orgasms. 

Want You Bad When Bradley realizes his girlfriend isn’t as innocent as he thought, at first he’s surprised, then he’s on board.

All I Want For Christmas Is You Bradley returns from deployment just before Christmas and immediately falls for the new bartender at the Hard Deck. 

Good Boy Bradley is more than happy to give up his dominant ways whenever you demand it from him. 

Take Two When Bradley got you pregnant, he blew his chance at a relationship with you. He loves his daughter, but he never stopped loving you too.

Champagne Lips You and Bradley both try to claim the last bottle of champagne on New Year's Eve.

I Would Never Hurt You Bradley saw the bruises and knew what was going on, but he also knew you didn't need him the way he needed you.

Hello, I Love You When Phoenix signs Bradley up for speed dating on Valentine's Day, he is skeptical. But after he meets the woman of his dreams, he's not afraid to admit his best friend was right.

Do You Wish It Was Me? When Bradley returns from deployment and finds you engaged to Harvard, he knows he needs to get you back. 

The Purrfect Storm Bradley inadvertently becomes a pet owner after he hits a stray with his Bronco. When he meets a lovely vet tech who is willing to help, both Bradley and the cat fall for her instantly.

Make It Messy, Baby Anytime Bradley has a rough day, his perfect wife is there to make it all better. Sometimes that means getting a little messy.

Daddy Would Say Yes After you manage to embarrass yourself in front of Rooster, he still makes it clear he wants you to ask him out.

Cockpit Love When you jokingly told Bradley that you would be jealous of him spending so much time with his Super Hornet, he decided it was time to let you stake your claim on him in the cockpit.

Something to Talk About Bradley knew the rumors were circulating. He knew his friends were talking. But he had known you for such a long time, and you were just friends. Because if something was going to happen between the two of you, it would have happened by now. Right?

When Tomorrow Comes Four months is a long time to go without Bradley. When you tease him a little bit the night before his deployment starts, he reminds you that he's always worth the wait.

You Want Me Anyway Bradley wasn't your boyfriend. He didn't owe you anything. But after months of hooking up, you expected more from him than what you were getting. It was time for you to move on. But Bradley has other ideas.

Earning His Rank Bradley knew you wanted to make his promotion night special for him as he got his new pin. He could tell by the teasing way you asked "What are you going to do to me when we get home, Lieutenant Commander?" He had something in mind.

Midnight Confessions It's getting harder and harder for Bradley to hide his feelings for you, especially when you offer to drive him home on his birthday. Before he knows it, he's drunk in your passenger seat, confessing everything he's kept to himself. He may not remember all of it in the morning, but you certainly do. 

How Could I Forget? When Bradley met you in a dive bar in Virginia, he just knew he wasn't going to be able to stop thinking about you. Even a year later, he still remembers your laugh and the way you kissed him.

So Fresh, So Clean At first, Bradley is mortified when the guys force him to stop at a carwash featuring bikini clad women from a college softball team. But when he meets you there, he starts to think he should thank his friends instead.

Feelings Involved After months of dancing around your feelings, you're about to leave San Diego and Bradley behind. But on your last night in California, you realize you're not the only one with your heart on the line.

Sufficiently Surprised Bradley loves dirty quickies with his wife. Between his work schedule and yours, that's often all there's time for. But when he rushes home from work on his birthday, ready and raring to go, he's in for a bit of a surprise.

Don't You Want Me, Baby It was like a fairytale, the way you stole Bradley's heart with your gorgeous face, retro denim jacket, and karaoke skills. But when you disappear into the night, leaving only one small trinket behind, he's left wondering if he didn't just dream you up.

Do You Wanna Touch Me? You had been working at the bar for six months. And you'd been crushing on Rooster since the first night he handed you his credit card, called you Babydoll, and asked you to start a tab for him. And it only got worse from there, until one night you asked him about more than just his drink order.

On My Terms Bradley didn't seem to notice how broken you were inside. When he looked at you, there was never any hesitation in his eyes. He was the first man in a long time that you wanted to trust with every part of you. If only your body and mind would start working together. If only you could get the words out.

Wrong Number Bradley was planning on a quiet night at home with a beer and a basketball game on TV. When he receives a text from a wrong number, he's left looking at a beautiful photo of you. Now he just needs to persuade you to ditch the guy you meant to text and focus on him instead.

Don't Waste Another Minute When you finally recognize that you have been hanging onto your relationship for all the wrong reasons, you end things. You knew there would be someone better for you, and it was a welcome realization to see that he had been right there in front of you the whole time. 

Stateside Bradley made a mistake last summer when he left for his deployment without ever asking you out, and then he thought about you a lot when he was gone. He was stateside again for less than a day when the other guys coerced him to help with a fundraiser at the Hard Deck. A friendly wager with the squad might not be the only thing he wins by the end of the night.

Deployment Sucks but I Swallow Bradley was used to having your undivided attention when he was about to leave for a long deployment, because you'd been spoiling him that way for years. When you spent the day with your friends and got home late instead, he wanted to be annoyed, but everything you do is just too sweet. 

Whole Lotta Love You and Bradley were just friends, and perhaps that was why you trusted him so much. It wasn't his fault that you were secretly harboring a crush a mile wide. When your noisy neighbor becomes too much and you decide you need to move, Bradley helps you brainstorm a solution. But when you set your plans into action, you're surprised to find that he seems almost jealous.

Vintage You love teasing your husband about his deep and unwavering devotion to his Bronco, but he's insistent that it would come in second place to you every time, and he intends to prove it. While you're away on deployment, he concocts a plan to get you behind the wheel of your very own vintage beauty.

Wild Rooster Chase Bradley thinks about you more than he should, and his feelings for you run deeper than they ought to. You've never given him an indication that you want to take the teasing touches and playful flirtation to the next level, so he never pressed his luck. When you surprise him by sending a text message that could change everything, he's ready to chase you all over San Diego for some answers.

California Autumn Bradley was drawn to you the minute you moved onto his street. You seemed to bump into one another everywhere, and each time he saw your smile or heard your laugh, he knew he had to ask you out. He wasn't expecting the answer you gave him, just as you weren't expecting to wish he could be the man for you.

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Inspired by @christinesficrecs, I'm going to do a few author spotlights! No one can stop me. I am going to shower love upon my pals and boost other writers in this fandom.

Up first we have @halevetica! She has so many options for readers!

Multi-Chapter Fics:

Leave Me in Ruins | 66K+ | 48 chapters tags: friends with benefits, slow burn, miscommunication

Summary: Derek finds himself in a difficult spot when he mistakenly sleeps with Stiles. The two agree to forget it but Derek can't. Before long, its becoming a regular thing, now Derek has to deal with the issue of falling even more for Stiles or losing him all together.

Stiles never dreamed of waking up next to Derek, but it's now a regular thing. However, he has to keep his emotions in check so Derek doesn't realize how he truly feels all while keeping their 'relationship' a secret from the pack and fighting the new big bad in town.

Like it or Not | 80k+ | 56 chapters tags: fake dating, enemies to lovers, mutual pining!

Summary: Stiles works as the editorial assistant at Vogue. He loves everything about his job except for his boss, Derek Hale. Derek Hale is the worst and Stiles hates him. But when Derek drags him to the yearly awards dinner within the company, he is forced to play boyfriend for the night to make Derek's ex jealous. Things couldn't get much worse…or so Stiles thought.

Same Old Song and Dance | Rated: E | 125k | 91 chapters tags: Alpha Derek, hunter Stiles, enemies-to-friends-to-lovers

Summary: Raised in the hunter life after his father was killed, Stiles hates werewolves. So when he lands a contract to kill the alpha of the pack that killed his father, he's elated. Until he runs into complications. The alpha is smart and strong and playing a game Stiles can't figure out. When secrets are revealed and new enemies made, Stiles must decide for himself what side he's on and who he can trust.

One shots:

Cute Together | 4k Summary: When Stiles gets stuck on a ski lift he meets Derek, who is scared of heights. He helps keep Derek calm until they can get rescued which leads to Derek teaching Stiles to ice skate. Along the way he helps Derek's two friends get together.

Promise | 3k Summary: Derek is stuck in the airport after his flight gets cancelled on Christmas eve when he meets Stiles Stilinski. Stiles is a friendly stranger that convinces Derek to have a little fun while stuck in the airport. His night with Stiles has more of an effect that Derek thought it would.

Feels Like Home | 4k Summary: Derek has spent years trying to quell the storm in his chest. The one that makes him feel lonely, like he doesn't belong. When searching for that feeling of home in New York where, he lived with Laura, he runs into Stiles Stilinski, who insists on Derek staying with him while in town. Derek shouldn't be shocked to find that Stiles feels like home.

Things to look forward to (aka works in progress!)

Shatter my Reality | 32k so far | 23 chapters to feast on! tags: mutual pining, jealous Stiles, ~magic~ Stiles, Stilinski twins! Summary: Months after the nogitsune, Stiles starts to see his own face around town. He dismisses it as PTSD. That is, until Lydia starts having a feeling that Stiles is going to die. As the pack scramble to find out what is going on, Stiles is forced to face a ghost from a past he didn't know he had and a future that seems to threaten his place in the pack.

Tangled Crowns | 23k so far~ | 14 terrific chapters to enjoy! tags: royal au, prince Stiles, prince Derek, magic Stiles! Summary: Flattery. Derek's life is full of it. Fake smiles, fake compliments, fake people. It's exhausting.

Desperate for a night away from the high expectations and rigid life of royalty, Derek escapes to a small tavern where he meets a sweet, attractive, genuine man who only gives him the name "Mischief". He has Derek swooning by the end of the night, and Derek doesn't swoon. Their night together, the first and only real connection Derek has had in years, if not his whole life, ends too soon, and he must return to his responsibilities.

Stiles isn't ready to give up on the mysterious, handsome "Samuel" that he met in the tavern, convinced they have a connection. He finds himself risking family secrets and even the peace of his own kingdom just to keep that connection even when it seems impossible. As circumstances force them together despite betrayal and aching hearts on both sides, Derek must fight both his heart and Stiles while Stiles struggles to prove to Derek that everything between them is real.

Go check out Halevetica's AO3 page and enjoy! Don't forget to mind the tags, leave a kudos, maybe even drop a comment!

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pls pls pls pls pls

i need more FWB simon 😭😭

We're Just Friends (FWB!Simon x GN!Reader)

A/N: You need it anon, you got it!! I need to write more hurt/comfort because damn I loved writing this. Post anon is referring to.

GENRE: Hurt/Comfort

Synopsis: You and Simon have established a friends-with-benefits relationship. But the boundaries set in place keep getting overstepped. Your brain his confused, Simon's heartstrings are getting pulled back and fourth, and it isn't exactly your fault. Simon's in denial, and that barrier slowly starts to break.

Word Count: 770

Masterlist here!

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"You seemed awfully touchy with others tonight."

"Simon-"

"I don't like the way they were looking at you."

"Are you jealous?"

He grumbled against your skin, feeling his lips pressing small kisses along the crook of your neck through the fabric of his mask. Pushing you further into the countertop in front of you, his grip on your hips was becoming more possessive by the second.

No matter how many times you would tell him, it seemed like it didn't really matter. You two weren't a couple, you're allowed to do your own thing, even if you weren't really trying to. He had a bit of a habit of becoming too touchy or affectionate to your liking in regards to your arrangement, and now it was especially showing through after a little get-together at his flat.

"Relax, they weren't looking at me in any way. And I'm allowed to explore my options."

"I know.. jus' like you to myself sometimes. That's all."

This was becoming too confusing. For yourself, and for him. You'll push him away, remind him your situation isn't longterm, that you're doing this for him and that if someone comes along then you're allowed to pull out. But you couldn't help but think that maybe there was something more that he wasn't telling you. No matter how many times he'll deny it, it was getting a little obvious.

Too obvious.

The way you unintentionally tugged on his heartstrings over and over again, the effect you had placed on him was getting too much to ignore.

Pulling the infuriating fabric of his mask down and breathing in your scent with a long sigh, it was clear he wasn't going to let you go. Not yet at least. Placing the small porcelain dishes into the sink which you had been holding, you turned the tap on to start cleaning them. May as well make yourself useful if you weren't going to move, the clean smell of his dish washing liquid filling your senses.

But as his face nuzzled further into your soft skin, he couldn't get enough of you, his hands gripping at the flesh of your hips, squeezing your waist and pulling you as flush against him as he could. He didn't like the dish washing liquid drowning you out. He was becoming needy, mumbling a few words which only become muffled against you.

But you already got the feeling you knew what he said.

"Don't-" You warned. But he didn't want to listen, cutting you off.

"Please, lovie," he lifted his face from your neck just enough so you could hear him, "please stay. Just one night, just tonight."

He sounded upset almost, his pleading voice lingering with something more than just neediness.

Normally this would've gone no where, but something was telling you to stay. And you weren't sure if it was yourself, or the forces of nature. You knew that accepting will only play with his heart further. You were cruel for promising him you'll stay. But how could you say no to him sounding so sickeningly desperate.

This was getting unhealthy.

"Fine," you answered him reluctantly, "but just this once."

You were pulled away from the sink, and in a matter of minutes, the make-out session had ensued on his bed. A bed that smelled so comfortingly of him. You expected the usual -sloppy kisses followed by your guts getting rearranged by the behemoth of a man on top of you. But that wasn't his plan.

His lips moved slowly against yours, kissing you in the dimmed lights of his bedroom as if he loved you, and left your heart and head confused.

"Need you," he whispered against your plump lips, "I need you like.. like this." laying next to you, his arms wrapped around you with his head pressing against your chest, "please."

All you did sigh and hold him close. It felt wrong. You hoped this wouldn't also become a habit, burying himself closer to your warmth.

"This wasn't part of our agreement."

Silence. His arms around you tightened.

"You're playing with my head."

Silence again.. but this time it was followed by a muffled grumble into the fabric of the Nirvana shirt he gave you for pyjamas, which was considerably oversized on you. Throughout his protests, you could make out a small whine of 'I'm sorry'.

And with a sigh, you reach over to his bedside table to turn the lamp off, cradling his head closer to you as you placed a small kiss on the top of his head.

"Goodnight, Simon. Sweet dreams."

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<33 happy November 21st! <3

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One off headcannon concept:

Deity/God of love x ace/aro spectrum!reader

Cw: angst, unrequited love, one-sided love. Enemies to one-sided love, never returned one-sided affection.

(reader is on the Aro/Ace spectrum, And they are still finding themselves)

This God has no name so it can be interpreted in a lot of ways!

Hi I am on the aroace spectrum. This is from my point of view please don't kill me aroace community.

Coming back into the mortal world blends into society All his brothers sisters aunts and uncles have done this already.

So, the rumors are true? Humans do not need us? Some of his kin have blended wonderfully into human society and become highly successful. I mean, it's pretty hard not to. They are gods, after all. But He isn't so willing to submit his godlike title.

He was quite an arrogant fellow. So when he found out his powers didn't exactly work on you, he was not happy... He had heard of mortals with the power to be resistant to his weapons no matter how dangerous, no matter how potent. You are the first he had seen and possibly the first of many... So he studied you... It was not hard, especially when He overheard you trying to find a roommate, and he applied.

You hated him... Anyone would. At least he pays his bills on time, but you cannot stand how he would set you up with dates!

A lot of the dates were bland but not bad. And as time went on the two of you started to get relatively close... Underneath his confident, cocky arrogance that made you scratch up walls, he was pretty chill.

The last straw was when you went out with one of the people he picked, and they treated you horribly. He had a big smile coming to pick you up, only to see you crying on the sidewalk. His heart felt heavy when he saw you, knowing he had helped you prepare for that date. Hell, the two of you even had fun...

The car ride was silent on the way home. Usually, you yelled at or told him how the date was, but this time, you were silently staring at your phone, your eyes red from crying.

That's when he decided to give up on finding you dates. He finally learned that love isn't something you force. And even then, he comes to terms with the truth that some mortals are not capable of experiencing sexual and romantic love. But he decided to stay in the human world only because he liked your company.

All is well from a lot of talking and a lot of apologizing and a lot of silence, Your relationship is slowly repaired. And after that, all was okay. The two of you honestly were attached to the hip partners in crime your group of friends would call you.

But then things started to get weird. He would feel this ache in his heart when guys or girls would come up and talk to you. It felt wrong. He felt protective, possessive, and jealous.

What was not to love about you? Every little thing you did made him smile. But what took his heart You were awkward at first (even more endearing in his opinion) but once you broke out of that shell to him you were like gold. you are funny. And you were a natural people magnet. Everyone liked you. You are sweet and caring, You had strong morals yet, You were not opposed to learning more and changing your opinions. He could go on and on... Even the little things you did that was normal for mortals He was captivated by because the small ways you did it was so interesting. You are not perfect, no human is. But it somehow just made you more attractive.

Once he realized that he was the one who fell in love. It wasn't something out of happiness or confusion but fear and sadness and immediate acceptance. To him he knew 100%, that he fall in love with someone who could never love In the same way in return. He is desperate for the hide feelings because if you find out, he's afraid you might never talk to him again. But at the same time, he wants to support you and do everything for you because he loves you and wants to see you at your best. And he wants to be there for your worst. He generally cares for you, And he won't let his selfish feelings get in the way of that.

So he will continue to stand beside you. It hurts. But that's okay. He's content with this.

[fullsunstrawberry]

Who in nct dream members do you think you'll have:

• Healthy, consistent, and serious relationship

• Slow (progress kind of) relationship because one is so shy

• On and off relationship because of constant LQ

• Friends with benefits (kind of) relationship because one cant commit

• Rationship where y'all don't have much time with each other because of work

• Relationship where one is always childish

• Strictly business (arranged) relationship

(hope you understand what I mean. my mind is in shambles rn)

Jaemin (Healthy, consistent, and serious relationship): I just feel like he is the most mature when it comes to relationships. He's the type to not let you fall asleep upset AND DEFINITELY NOT IN SEPARATE BED!! It doesn't matter how big the argument is, prepare to stay up and solve it so y'all can move on. He's in this for marriage baby

Renjun (Slow relationship because one is so shy): He's the type to fall in love with a friend. He was shy when you guys first met and then he got used to your company. But then he starts to fall for all your tiny little traits that he finds adorable. Then he gets shy AGAIN! Leaving you all confused as to why...

Jisung (On and off relationship because of constant LQ): Definitely his first relationship and you guys started off as friends. It would take him a little bit to adapt to the new relationship. Which is a struggle for you. Every little argument that occurs he asks if you are breaking up with him...sometimes you just had enough and say yes before leaving. But every single time he apologizes. You forgive him because he usually learns from his mistakes and won't do it again. looked up what LQ meant cause I had no clue what it is and still don't

Haechan (FWB relationship because one can't commit): I feel like he would be in a friends with benefit situation because he's really busy but wants to get some stress relief if you know what I mean. Tells himself he can't commit because he's too busy and it will just be another distraction. Says all of this but will definitely fall first. Gets all jealous when you bring up going on a date with someone or hooking up with someone else. He would 100% become very clingy out of nowhere and make you question your feelings

Mark (Works too much): i feel like this one was a given…this boy is always doing something. But he wouldn't want a FWB relationship because he likes having a connection with someone. He would apologize constantly even though you told him it was okay. Basically moved all his stuff to your apartment so when he gets home he can see you even just for a little bit. Definitely expect a lot of love songs written about you.

Chenle (Relationship where one is always childish): but in a good way, he feels comfortable around you. Most of the time you guys have a playful relationship; playing video games, board games, forces you to play basketball, and watch the games. But he also has a serious side to him. If you are having a bad day he will try to make you laugh but when you don't even crack a smile, he knows it's serious and will spoil you with what every you need.

Jeno (Strictly business arranged relationship): I feel like either him or Jaemin would be asked to be in an arranged relationship for the public eye but Jaemin would be against it. Jeno wouldn't really care. But he didn't know just how much time you two had to spend together because this boy is gonna fall...and he's gonna fall HARD. Gets delulu and basically acts like you are in a relationship all the time even when you're not in public. Prepare to be confused!!!

Hoped this helped your mind a little bit...Had me thinking too

love these who in nct dream questions

[emotelizardrambling]

Idea started after reading this post

I love their take, but I thought it would be even more interesting if SugarBoo was close friends with one boy and actually had a bit of a grudge or a more frenemies relationship with the other.

So here is what I came up with so far:

I have a vastly over complicated backstory for my BitterSweet OC, but I am trying to stick to what is relevant. Fair warning, though, It is still pretty long.

SB's mom ran away with them, from their wealthy (but emotionally abusive) father, when they were about 4 or 5. The two ended up in the town where BitterSweet takes place.

SB immediately hit it off with Seth. The two became best friends and were practically joined at the hip for the next 9(ish) years. There was only one major thing they ever seemed to disagree on. Alphonse.

At first, the trio got along alright even if SB was sometimes pretty overwhelmed by Alphonse's energy. As Seth grew closer to Al, however, SB started to realize they were jealous. They tried to just distance themself from the two a little, but Al decided he liked SB right away and would not leave SB alone.

When they started trying to ignore him, he did what way too many little boys do when their first crush doesn't pay attention to them. He started teasing them.

[Note: I can't really see Alphonse becoming a real bully to SB. I could see him teasing them about little things just to get them riled up, though, and I can imagine that, occasionally, a young Al might go a little too far and actually hurt SB's feelings. At which point Seth would tell him off, and Al would do something cute to apologize, and the two would go back to their strange little rivalry.]

By middle school you had Seth with a huge crush on Al but confused as to why he and SB can't seem to get along, SB with a huge crush on Seth but knowing he has a crush on Al who is kindof an ass to them, and Al who had a huge crush on SB but is stuck squarely in the frenemy zone.

Before that mess can be sorted out, though, SB's father found them and their mother and allowed (forced) them to come back to him.

Al and Seth had no idea what happened for months until SB managed send them a letter (through Al's parents) explaining how sorry she was that she never got to sag goodbye and that she hadn't wanted to leave. Not wanting her father to find out about Seth (or Alphonse) or for their friends to see how "Sarah Beth" had to look and behave under their father's thumb, that was the only contact the friends had for a very long time.

After becoming an adult, SB managed to convince (blackmail) their father to leave them alone and made their own way in the world. (With a very solid safety net of hush money.)

They moved to the city, and eventually moved in with a long-term romantic partner, before finally running into Seth again.

Turns out they had been living in the same city for months, but now Seth was just tying up loose ends before he moved back to their hometown to be with Alphonse.

[Note: In this universe, Derek got hit by a truck before ever meeting Seth's mom, and Seth and Al never actually joined the gang. Instead, both worked odd jobs and worked for a long time at a nightclub. Because Seth didn't need to freak out (as much) when Al had to move back to their hometown, the two are still together.]

SB was pretty devastated to hear Al's parents had passed away. SB had always liked the couple, and they always kept Al from poking fun at SB when they were around.

SB and Seth got coffee, caught up, and exchanged contact info. They started regularly texting and chatting online, gradually reforming their long missed friendship.

This would go on for months until Al picked up the shop's landline just before he closed for the night, only to hear SB crying on the other end.

That's where I need to end this post. Sorry about the (sort of) cliffhanger. I actually already wrote a chapter or so of what happens after this, but it needs editing, and all this would kind of be needed for context anyway, so I decided to put it out into the Tumblrverse.

[queenjunothegreat]

I have so many MOA scene rewrite suggestions (you obviously do not have to write all of these, but you asked for suggestions so!! also sorry for this being so long)

- (this is a big sad one) Jason reuniting with camp Juptier and realizing he wasn’t very missed and was basically replaced + Leo getting possessed and firing on Camp Jupiter (I can’t remember if this was Leo’s thought process in the books, but Leo would definitely think he was a curse for Jason or something. Like first he ruined things with Thalia and now this)

- I would love to see a one-shot of Leo and Hazel’s relationship being fixed. Cause I hate the fact that Hazel had to deal with two guys crushing on her after being traumatically revived into a new time period. This could also function as a Valgrace/Lost trio fic cause Jason and Piper would definitely get jealous of Leo being constantly stolen away to go on missions without them.

- Jason’s birthday picnic with Piper

- this last one isn’t MOA related but I want to include anyways cause it’s a special headcannon to me. I 100% believe that Annabeth pestered the shit out of Leo when he was building the Argo II. Not in a mean way!!! But, she would definitely immediately try to help Leo in making the ship cause she loves designing things and she wants to see her boyfriend. I feel like she horrible at assuming/accepting that people wouldn’t want her help. Therefore, she keeps pestering Leo on ship progress and ideas. And Leo being the solo worker he is, just doesn’t know how to work with someone else. It could function great as a 5+1 fic like - “Five times Annabeth tries to help Leo, + the one time Annabeth succeeds in helping.” Basically, I just need someone to write a fic about their friendship. As well as Leo accepting he doesn’t need to do everything alone and he can ask for help.

Never apologize for longwindedness to me. I am King President of Yappingtonshireville and I ALWAYS encourage everyone to run their mouths. In fact, I am THANKING you for all these wonderful ideas 😌

First and foremost, um???? Butting heads to work besties Annabeth and Leo??? Hello??? Sign me the FUCK up!! There's not NEARLY enough fics featuring these two and that needs to change ASAP! It will also be a really good chance for me to work on my Annabeth voice for the HoH rewrite. Her being so eager and willing to help to the point where it would be off putting to anyone much less someone like Leo while also not even recognizing it is SUCH an Annabeth thing oh my god. My darling girl mwah mwah mwah.

Also! Yes! Hazel! She deserved so much better than being forced into a weird bad love triangle that didn't do literally anything for the story. Leo will have absolutely ZERO romantic feelings for the traumatized 13 year old, bur he will absolutely flirt with her when Frank is around just to mess with him. I am REALLY fond of the odea of them becoming friends (and Hazel being like "Frank, why are you being mean to Leo? 🥺 He's my friend" and Frank folding like a house of cards) and I'm beyond delighted with the idea of Jason and Piper having a mutual pouting session about Leo hanging out with Frank and Hazel more. That in particular could fold really nicely into the Jason’s birthday picnic thing!

Ooooh, I am gnawing on this Jason getting to CJ concept. I was planning on writing it from (SURPRISE!) Reyna’s POV, but I think it would be sososo good to then swap POV halfway through and have them mirror each other's thoughts without even realizing it. I am actually in the middle of writing a fic that is immediately post everyone getting back on the ship after firing on New Rome, so I will for SURE be yoinking those "Leo feels like a curse" thoughts to put in there because it is SO good.

[skzpixie]

For my youth interview

Cw: Dark!! Mentions of past abus*ve relationship(physical and sexual), suicidal attempts, past pedophilia(kai was the victim), mentions of infertility, drinking problems, let me know if there is any I missed

Taglist: @mynameisnotlaura

Px: Annyeong! My name is Pixie from straykids, but you may call me Kai. (She waves at the camera and blows it kisses)

Q: What is "For my youth" about?

Px: For my youth... it's a very raw, emotional part of myself. I try and make sure my image before now is the silly kind, I hate seeing anyone in pain or sad, so I don't like showing my emotions other than positive ones.

Px: I never had a good grasp of emotions growing up. My childhood was cut short because of me becoming a trainee, and I was not able to come to terms with my emotions through puberty. While other trainees at least had some semblance of a social life, I was always training or too busy teaching others to actively partake in regular emotional stability.

Px: so in a way, For my Youth is therapy?(She laughs) it's basically a love letter to myself.

Q: Who is the ex you talk about in your songs?

Px: Oh my (she blushes, holding her cheek, embarrassed) he was my first relationship I had. I was fifteen and he was... late into being nineteen?

Px: Don't look at me like that. So many people look at me with pity when I tell them that, and I hate being regarded with pity. (She sighs)

Px: It was... not a good relationship. We fought constantly. We were both jealous of the other's time away. I would be training with Chan and he would get so... angry. I had threatened the girls he was talking to, it was not a fun thing. I felt so.. ugly when I was with him.

Px: He had a massive drinking problem. Some days he would come to the dorm and...(her eyes glossed over at the memory) ...I'd rather not speak of it.

Px: Whenever I was able to have my phone, he would only let me talk to him. He was able to talk to whoever he wanted, but I was lucky if I was even allowed to talk to my mother once a month. The relationship lasted a year and I was only able to talk to my parents... about a collective two times? One during Easter and one during Chuseok.

Px: (she clears her throat) Back then, I was so blinded by love of this... man. He was so sweet one minute, and then he would be violent. I can't tell you how many times he forced himself upon me, that now it's hard to say whether I would be able to have kids (she laughs bitterly) which really sucks because my dream was to be a mother. (She tilts her head back to avoid the tears to fall)

Q: Why did you include a song such as Bullet in For my Youth

Px: Ah, Bullet... it was originally supposed to be a Stray Kids song but we decided not to because of the very dark concept it had. I still have the demo of the us singing it together (she laughs softly)

Px: I wrote it before I joined JYP at thirteen. I was twelve and I really enjoyed listening to bands like MCR and Guns and Roses. It was the time where I would hurt myself, I still have the scars from the time. Not physically but...

Px: The second time I revised it was back in 2022, right after my second attempt. I was so depressed after my parents passing that I didn't even think about the effect it would have on my family and especially my brother. I was very depressed, I think the most I was in my life. I blame myself, y'know. And don't say it wasn't, because they wouldn't have died if that guy wasn't a "fan" of mine.

Px: I think that's the irony of Bullet. The happy tone of me singing shows how us idols, especially women, have to be all happy on the outside while we all have problems.

Q: What is the biggest message you want people to take away from your album?

Px: funny answer or serious answer? (She pauses) serious answer? That you can overcome anything. You are much stronger than you look, and you may be the reason a friend is still with you today. Don't make your past your present, and don't ever make it your future. You are so much more than your past.

Bonus:

Px: Funny answer? Capitalise your trauma and cry on company time. (Winks)

[yanderes-galore]

Hello, Can I get some yandere rival headcanons for Mlp new Gen ponies sugar moonlight and the other ponies in the filli four? Since sugar is someone who craves attention and compliments how would she deal with a alicorn rival to compete with?

Sure! I'll try my best. I'm focusing on Sugar Moonlight in this though I do mention the Filly Four. Your request confused me so I did what I could. I did not include Misty in this, however.

Yandere! Sugar Moonlight with Alicorn! Rival! Darling

(Ft. Sugar, Rosedust, Lily)

Short Concept

Pairing: Romantic - Rivalry/Harem

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Jealousy, Rivalry, Deception/Manipulation, All three have a crush on you, Rivals to "lovers" (Sugar and Darling), Harem, Stalking.

Sugar is indeed a yandere who thrives on attention.

After all, that's why the rest of the Filly Four follow her.

Her group is so popular!

She's influential and does whatever she can to gain popularity.

Alicorns are all the rage right now.

There used to be only one Alicorn in Maretime Bay, Sunny.

But her form fluctuates so wildly....

You, on the other hand, are a natural Alicorn who appeared when the magic flowed back in Equestria.

Seeing you get so much attention irritates the pony... a lot.

Sugar is tired of even hearing Rosedust and Lily talk about you.

You attract too much attention.

Her relationship towards you would start as a rivalry.

Sugar envies your Alicorn abilities.

Her own group wanted to side with you!

She was left in the dust ever since you came in!

Sugar tries to play along at first.

She pretends to adore your beauty, acting like she's a fan.

Deep down she's looking for ways to sabotage you and gain popularity again.

It annoys her that Alicorns have a natural charisma to them.

Sugar would give you passive aggressive comments and often fights with Rosedust and Lily due to you.

Rosedust and Lily act like they're infatuated with you.

Meanwhile Sugar is frustrated and angry at this.

You're even trending on social media!?

Sugar's anger takes awhile to mellow out.

There's times she'll argue with you while you try to diffuse the situation.

It's not like you mean to be so popular!

You really don't, but ponies go crazy about Alicorns. (As you soon will see)

Sugar will be irritated and jealous for a long time.

Until she takes a moment to look you over and chat.

She's forced to meet you with Rosedust and Lily, who don't shut up about you on and offline.

Sugar forces herself to learn more about you.

Maybe she'll learn how to be as popular as you... maybe you can get her likes if she takes a few pictures.

When she actually starts to listen and talk to you is when her obsession with you starts.

Instead of an obsessive need to feel anger towards you, she thinks about befriending you.

After all... if she does become friends with you... then she'll get more views.

Her obsession goes like this in this scenario;

She hates you -> she starts to befriend you for popularity -> she actually falls in love with you.

It's slow but soon Sugar really does start to fall for you.

This causes more arguments between the Filly Four...

Rosedust and Lily are upset because they fell for you first.

Sugar is upset at this and tries to reason that you two would have much better chemistry between each other.

Essentially you go from being Sugar's rival... to making Rosedust and Lily her rivals instead.

It's strange for you to see this influential pop group fight over you.

You didn't even want this attention in the first place.

Now Sugar wants to disband the Filly Four, growing to resent the other two ponies even more.

Sugar definitely apologizes for fighting with you, covering her face in eyeshadow and lip gloss in an attempt to sway your affection towards her.

They all do their mane and coat... they're models, after all.

The mutual obsession between all of them towards you causes lots of fights and tension.

You're no longer dealing with two clingy ponies and a rival... you have a harem.

They cling to you and fight with each other, desperate for the attention of an Alicorn.

"No hard feelings, right!?" Sugar says nervously to you. "Come on... I'll make us both famous!"

"You missed your chance!" Lily cries.

"We were meant to be with them first!" Rosedust agrees.

They most likely stalk you like some sort of fan club.

Sugar feels guilty for hating you.

She doesn't need all that attention...

No... after all, the only attention she needs is yours!

She'll do anything to get it!

Even sabotage Rosedust and Lily for it.

(It may be best you move from Maretime Bay-)

[nikkirando]

Hello Nikki!

How about Yandere BTS members (separately) headcanons?

(If you don't write for Yandere content, then it can just be: Being in a relationship with them headcanons separately)

💕

Knowing My Demise

ok, so I never really wrote for Yandere but only a few times nor have I done headcanons so...this is a small new experience for all of us? sorry if this isn't what you wanted. @melloween-candie

Warnings: Abuse, gaslighting, a hint of killing, blood mentioned, and language, jungkook was kinda lazy

Jin:

He's at first a little standoffish but when you guys get more close he's more open.

When you get close to someone they suddenly avoid you but the only one that stayed was Jin.

When you guys finally start dating he becomes more jealous and more possessive.

He sometimes scares you by the way he looks or talks to the people who simply look or talk to you.

He hates when people accidentally bump into u grown-up or kid.

There were some points he would roughly grab you to drag you away which left marks on you for a few days.

Suga:

Shy and sweet at first but did give your friends weird looks if they talked to you.

He was more of the grabby type when you guys started to date.

Anytime someone looked at you or talk to you Suga would be right by your side grabbing a handful of your ass and kissing your neck.

He would always try and pull you away from the people you were talking to.

The more you started dating into the relationship he tried to make you stop talking to your family and friends saying they were "a bad influence".

At some points, it felt like prison like you can't go anywhere without Suga if he can't go neither can u.

J-Hope:

The second you met him he was the talking time and talked about the weirdest things and made creepy jokes but you never thought about it.

When you started dating he never let you go into his bedroom at all his number one rule was "Never go into my bedroom ever".

As you continue to date he always stayed at your place all the time it's like he lived there.

All your friends just suddenly went missing all your guy friends just proof! missing posters and your girlfriends just avoid you like you have a disease.

One day you went into his bedroom to look for him...An honest mistake you thought he would forgive but...the room...was bloody... knives and saws everywhere...meat on the floor..

After leaving his room and house all together you didn't know what to do..or if you should tell anyone.

RM:

Sweet and caring you thought when you first met him nothing wrong you thought.

He was your best friend and gave you advice about the world and even with your old bf's and or Gfs.

When you guys actually started dating he was more jealous than ever he even tried to make you block your friends in front of him for proof.

There would be sometimes you would fight and he's the one who does the screaming and even threatened your friends and family in a fight.

You were scared of him..to upset him in case he actually goes on with a threat he made.

Sometimes he would force you to cuddle him even though you do not want to. You are scared to break up with him.

Jimin:

Sexy type you thought of him as he always winked at you and flirted with you every time you two were together.

He always got angry whenever you were with someone else that wasn't him. He comfort you when your S/Os went missing.

When you guys started dating he was still his sexy flirty self as he was more touchy in public.

All the dudes or gals who tried to flirt with you suddenly went missing he always acted weird whenever they did then go back to normal a few days later.

He sometimes came back late at night he always showered and came into bed.

You were doing laundry and found his white shirt covered in red stuff on it you confronted him but he shrugged it off with that smile of his.

V:

He was cocky when you first met him which you didn't like at all.

But somehow you guys started dating which was good for some time before he started gaslighting you into not going out and stuff.

When the relationship continued he got more abusive there were some points he grab you roughly by the hair and lock you into a room for hours.

He scared you a lot you were scared of being locked in that damn dark closet.

You did everything he said with the fear he's going to hurt you more if you don't listen to a thing he said.

He always made you sit on his lap no matter what you never said no because you were scared.

Jungkook:

He was joyful and happy when you met him which you loved.

He kept hinting that he likes you but never went for it but you were the one to confess to him.

As you started to date he was more secretive about a lot of things and even his house and rooms.

There was always a gross smell whenever you passed one of his rooms which made you gag a few times.

You finally had enough and walked into the room to see your old...S/O tied up gushing blood out of them.

You backed away from them as you bumped into something...or someone...you turned around to see Jungkook with a creepy smile on his face before everything went black.

[appelia]

♡*♡∞:｡.｡ Main 4 + Butters Relationship HCs

IMPORTANT: all my characters in my fics are aged up to 19-24. Side note: excuse my poor English.

warnings: none applicable

reader gender: gender neutral

a/n: this is my first tumblr fic, i hope it's enjoyable! :)

Stan Marsh

I see Stan as a bit of a hopeless romantic

But when he does get into a relationship, he either totally lovebombs, or gradually becomes obsessed with you over the years.

He definitely needs reassuring for EVERYTHING (/neu)

"Is it okay that I'm holding your hand? Are my hands too sweaty? I can let go if you want."

But over time he becomes comfortable with you, and knows that if you're ever uncomfortable, you'll tell him right away.

He loves cuddles, so long as it's not in front of his friends, as he doesn't want them teasing you.

Actually a gentleman, will stop to tie your shoes for you.

His ideal date night: Sitting in his or your bedroom and blasting music while drunk.

He'll get up and make you dance with him, the two of you stumbling around in your dunken haze.

You'll both laugh so hard you wind up in tears and on the floor.

Overall, both of you have flaws. For what it's worth, he's a great boyfriend, so long as you help each other try and patch those flaws.

Kyle Brovlofski

He's a lover, this one

Despite the fact that he's rather inexperienced with relationships, he treats you like the royalty you are.

He has many insecurities, but will work overtime to make sure that you yourself love yourself fully.

Speaking of insecurity, he's very jealous.

If you're chatting with someone, and he notices them getting a little too comfortable, he won't hesitate to walk over and hug you from behind, putting his chin on your shoulder, maybe even kissing your cheek if the person is still flirty.

He may not need constant reassurance, but when you two start dating, he'll accidentally avoid you out of fear he'll mess something up.

While Stan may be a gentleman, Kyle is the epitome of the word Chivalry.

He'll force you to stay in the car until he's walked around and opened the car door for you.

His ideal date night: The movie theater! Nothing wrong with a good old fashioned movie date.

He'll accidentally blow a bag on the expensive ass movie theater snacks, but it's worth it for you.

He WILL spoil you.

Eric Cartman

He acts all tough and stuff around his friends, but behind closed doors, he's your babygirl.

Demands kisses and cuddles at all given moments.

In front of his friends, he'll firmly wrap an arm around your waste.

"Yeah, this is my bitch." (More like he's YOUR bitch, but you don't say anything and just go along with it.)

He'll complain, but he secretly loves spoiling you. Maybe because you spoil him too.

He doesn't show his jealousy outright, but if he sees you talking to ANYONE around your ages, he is internally FUMING.

His ideal date night: People watching at a park, making fun of passerbys.

He'll literally make fun of the way he sees someone breathe.

He may be an awful person sometimes, but you even him out slightly, Kyle will say he's gotten soft because of you.

He has, but he'll deny it to the ends of the Earth.

He makes you playlists and gets mad when you don't listen to them as soon as he makes them.

Kenny McCormick

Kenny is an ex-fuckboy. When he realized his crush on you, he quickly dropped all his flings.

He is absolutely smitten with you.

He honestly gets angry that he doesn't get spoil you. He'd give you the world and more if it didn't have a price tag.

That being said: He's a total perv, he hasn't lost his roots completely.

Will make dirty jokes at any given moment just to fluster you, doesn't matter who you're with.

He's 100% okay with PDA. In fact, he initiated it first.

Will straight up make out with you in public any where.

Doesn't talk much when you two are around others, but at night, lying in your bed, you two will have the deepest conversations.

Cried of happiness in your arms the first time he stayed over at your house for the night, because you made him bring over his family's laundry and you did it for free. (You constantly help his family with things they might not have access to, mostly discreetly b/c you don't want them feeling like a charity case.)

His ideal date night: Laying in the grass at midnight and watching the stars, occasionally making out.

He loves everything about you, and will always make that known.

Butters Stotch

He's such a sweetheart.

He loves kisses, but gets really shy everytime you kiss him.

It's rare he ever uses your actual name to address you. He mostly uses pet names like angel, baby, sweetheart, etc.

You knocked that weird misogynist phase out of him and for that he owes you big time.

He's insecure about his scar and prosthetic eye, so you always make it a point to tell him how beautiful he and his eyes are.

To him, you hung the stars in the sky.

He doesn't want to mess things up, so he asks Cartman for advice. Which was a bad idea, because he ends up doing/saying something really stupid and it takes you two days to forgive him.

He makes up for it by apologising 400 times and buying you a basket of candies.

His ideal date night: Either going to the aquarium or the beach, right after eating dinner at a nice restaurant.

He loves to lay on your chest and listen to your heartbeat.

One night, you accidentally drop him off five minutes past his cerfew, and stick up for him when his parents give him a hard time. Because of you, they only grounded him for three days instead of two weeks.

[spotsupstuff]

Now, I have trying to organize your iterators from the oldest to the youngest and it looks like this:

Zephyr, Boreas, Fish, Euros

Now, who is the youngest? Notos or Haboob?

Because I was looking at older post and for a moment I thought it was Haboob, but then you said that Haboob was isolated so I couldn't take that first meeting between Notos and Haboob as the introduction of Notos to the local group because in the ask I made about her colony you mentioned that Notos welcomed her as a pier and not a stranger.

Also, how is the relation between Euros and Haboob?

Haboob is the baby of the Anemoi! Notos is an incredibly early Gen 3- like in the first five Gen 3s of the Eo group. Haboob is a mid Gen 3

Notos welcomed her as a peer into their lil boss group cuz Notos does not differentiate or give a shit bout much things. if you are good to Notos, Notos will be civil and kind. if you won't be, it will either just stare for a sec before leaving without a word or will be passively aggressive if forced into interaction. what it saw when Haboob was added out of nowhere was a young iterator, confusion and fear straight up pouring out of her and it was just getting worse n worse as the other three elder ones were conversing about how wrong this is. essentially calling Haboob herself wrong. Haboob was like a kicked puppy in that moment and well Notos May be a logical thing, but it is also kind and wants the right and fair things to happen to people around it. so it barked a lil at the other three and then did what it wanted which was to offer Some kind of safety for the newbie by approaching her like that

sure worked out, considering Haboob latched onto it as her big sister and best friend. something goes wrong? Haboob is booking it to Notos before anyone else

THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN THOSE TWO WAS A. MESS AT FIRST. cuz Euros was jealous of SO many things Haboob has going on. the free puppet? the nice colony? the interactions Boob has with all of them? becomes even worse the moment he realizes how similar young Sparrows n Boob are. but also he didn't exactly wanna just shit on this poor unknowing kid so for a good while he tried to minimalize their interactions. until one day... hmm.......

gonna go with Boob havin a breakdown in a group call about smth unrelated over how pushed away from everyone she is even though they are supposed to be a team and apologizing for not knowing they are Meant to Suffer. "i'm sorry for being happy with my life- i didn't know i wasn't meant to be." and she's so painfully genuine cuz she doesn't know what else to do to make this better anymore

Notos didn't say anything to that cuz it knew this needed to play out between the other four, Zephyr- you can imagine- IMMEDIATELY snapped into full attention and started doin her best to gently and kindly correct that train of thought while the boys were kind of stunned in the background. B n Caper then talked about it by themselves and promised each other they were gonna try and be better. that's how they eventually manage to get here

they share memes together so she Knew :')

Boob even called up Euros (along with Fish) to help her name that big crab of hers later on!

what's this? a sister without an endless supply of spice (only reasonable amount of pissery)? here we thought that was impossible.

[sweetbillwriting]

Love Just Happens

Roxy's Perspective - Additional Chapter

Description: Roxy has been Aurora Lou's best friend since they were teenagers but when Bill becomes a big part of Aurora's life their friendship changes.

Characters: The future's Bill Skarsgård and others close to him. The rest is my own characters. 

Setting: This story is set in the future but because it's hard to say how the world is then (and it isn't that important for the story) the future is similar to our time now, even with fashion and so on. 

Warnings: 18+, age difference, smut, alcohol, ageism, talk about sex, talk about weight and looks, plastic surgery, cheating, jealousy, bullying, toxic relationships, mentions of abuse.

Notes: this is additional "scenes" to the original stories so scenes from the original story aren't a part of this story.

“A plain but ambitious girl” 

That was probably how Roxy would have explained Aurora Lou, before the nose job. 

They met at their ballet class when they were fifteen. They were the most ambitious girls in the class and of course they became friends, the other didn't seem to understand how serious the dancing was. They tipped on their toes next to each other with squared postures. The sweat ran down their backs because of their teachers' hard drill but the two of them never whined. 

Their teacher, Mrs. Cassidy, looked at them proudly but gave Aurora an extra long look. She had many times said out loud, in front of the whole class that Aurora had the perfect body for the dance. The teacher probably thought the girls would be jealous, trying to lose weight to look more like Aurora but none of them wanted to look like her. She looked like a child compared to them, petite, with a flat chest and no other curves. No guy looked at her, with her messy curls and childlike futures. Roxy thought she was cute and kind though, even if she had understood both the girls in the dance class and at her school thought she was a pain in the ass. She sang all the time. She heard from people that she walked through the corridors singing, sat alone outside, singing and that even the librarian was forced to hush her because she suddenly wanted to try the acoustics in the school's library. Roxy wanted to give her a chance though, even if the time and activities with Aurora were limited. She had an insane curriculum with singing lessons, dance lessons and piano lessons. She didn't drink and seemed to be afraid of guys. 

One day they laid in the May sun by Aurora's parents' pool. They had been friends for a year and big things had happened that year. Roxy met her first boyfriend, Aurora won a singing contest but she also finally got her period. Roxy talked about her summer plans with her boyfriend while Aurora listened and gave her her full attention. Roxy wondered if she was jealous of her, if she understood that not many guys were interested in her but would never ask. It felt like a subject you didn't talk with Aurora about, everything was about her music career for her. 

Roxy looked at Aurora's mom Melinda fascinated where she sat on the opposite side of the pool. She was so beautiful and young. Her own mom said she was a trophy wife, a young wife to a rich plastic surgeon. Roxy thought she was wrong, Aurora's dad was funny and kind and the two grown ups kissed a lot, she had even seen them make out in a way other grown ups didn't. Her father, Paolo, came out to them and sat down by Melinda's side. 

“Have you told Roxy the news, honey?” He shouted to Aurora over the big pool. Roxy gave her a curious look with a small smile. Has she met a guy? 

Aurora laughed embarrassed and played with a knot on her bikini bottom. 

“I have been offered a record deal…” she smiled big but blushed heavily. 

Roxy made an excited scream and hit Aurora playfully on her arm.

“Oh my god! That's awesome! 

“But… They think I must be a bit older and they want to see how I ‘evolve’...” Aurora looked down and shrugged her shoulders. 

“Oh… Is it like… an appearance thing?” Said Roxy carefully. Aurora was such a talented singer and dancer and she could also see Aurora didn't really look like a popstar, even if she slowly had gotten more curves and learned to master her curls. 

Aurora didn't say anything, so the answer was obvious. Roxy wondered what they wanted her to change. Or would they wait for puberty to hit? 

Roxy continued to talk about her boyfriend again when Aurora had been silent a bit too long. Aurora smiled and laughed at the stories. It was hard to read Aurora but Roxy forgot about her news while talking about her boyfriend. 

××× 

Aurora had said she had a lot to do over summer but then she continued to be as hard to reach the first part of autumn. Roxy thought she tried to dump her as a friend and got annoyed at her but when she even missed ballet practice she got a feeling something was wrong. 

“Mrs. Cassidy,” she asked after a lesson and walked up to her teacher who wiped off the bar they had been standing by with a wet rag. She looked up at Roxy with a small smile. 

“Eh… Have you heard anything from Aurora? She hasn't been here for so long.” 

Mrs. Cassidy looked down at the wet rag with pursed lips. 

“That girl had so much potential… She called, dropped out. Because of weight gain.” 

Roxy looked uncomfortable with her teacher. It didn't feel okay that she told her that but she didn't say anything. 

“It's always how it starts… Probably a boy. Don't make the same mistake, Roxanne.” 

Roxy wondered what had actually happened. Had she gained so much weight she was at fat camp or something? It sounded weird when Aurora had probably weighed under 100 pounds. 

She didn't have any other option than to visit her even if it felt weird to do so when she didn't answer any of her messages. 

It was Melinda who opened the door, dressed in leggings and a sports bra. She looked so good that it was hard to understand why her daughter had become so plain. 

“Oh! Roxy! Nice to see you,” she said kindly but didn't let her in. Roxy smiled and played with her light brown hair. 

“Is Aurora okay? I haven't heard from her for a very long time.” 

Melinda smiled a little and looked towards the stairs. 

“She's okay, wait a moment so I can see if she's home.” 

Melinda walked into the house while Roxy stood in the doorway looking into the big hallway. She understood Melinda walked to see if Aurora wanted to talk to her and prepared herself for a no. She was surprised for several reasons when she saw Aurora, mostly because of the tape on her nose and bruises under her eyes. It was obvious she had gotten a nose job but it wasn't the only thing that was different with her. Instead of a petite, childish figure she now had hips and curvy thighs and when she walked by the mirror Roxy could also see she had a really nice ass. Even with the tape on her nose Roxy saw her differently, she was hot. It was probably not that much that was different with her in reality but the smaller nose made her big brown eyes become doll-like and her lips inviting. She was beautiful. Roxy looked at her with big eyes and didn't know what to say. This was the same Aurora, but in six months she had become a young woman. She didn't know why she felt pain in her stomach. 

“Hey… Can you come in? I hate to show myself like this…” said Aurora embarrassed and pointed to her nose. Roxy smiled a little uncomfortably and walked into the house. Aurora was dressed as her mother while Roxy came from school, in jeans and a hoodie. 

“Did your dad…?” She asked carefully and nodded to the nose. 

“Yeah… Instead of having his real one, he has given me a new one,” she joked and looked at Roxy take off her shoes. Together they walked into the house. It was as modern and clean as it had always been, only that school books were spread over the dining room table. 

“I'm trying to study from home… I have so many things to do now, I haven't had time to go to school…” said Aurora embarrassed and walked to the kitchen. She gave them each a coke while they sat down next to her books by the table. 

“Oh? The nose job and..?” 

Aurora still looked just as embarrassed. 

“I'm recording now… I've written some of the songs myself…”

Roxy nodded a little but felt the jealousy creep up. She didn't think anything would actually happen with the record deal. 

“Mrs. Cassidy said you had gained weight?” 

Aurora laughed, she didn't seem to care that their teacher talked about her behind her back. 

“Yeah I did… Over the summer. I quit the ballet diet and then it was just like, boom! I gained 20 pounds or something. For me that's a lot, because of my height. But I've lost some of it now but it was quite funny telling Cassidy that…” 

Roxy looked at her carefully with a doubtful smile. If she had been more confident she would have told Aurora how good she looked but she couldn't. Aurora had a record deal, a new nose and rich parents, she didn't need to hear that she looked good also. 

“I’m sorry I haven't answered you… Em… Because you will hate me…” said Aurora and looked down at her hands. Roxy gave her a confused look but understood Aurora was ashamed of something. 

“You know your boyfriend's police report? I was the one filing it…” 

Roxy's boyfriend had been accused of stealing from people on the beach with his friends. They weren't together anymore but she had never believed the accusations. 

“They stole my shoes, weirdly enough. I didn't have anything else to steal but I saw them carry my shoes and also go through some other people's pants pockets…” continued Aurora. “I understand if you don't want to believe me.” 

Roxy nodded slowly. She didn't know what to believe and instead waved it away. She wasn't with him anymore. 

“We're not together any longer and… And I need a new, better boyfriend!” 

*** 

Being sixteen was exciting in many different ways. New experiences, new friends, a new sort of freedom. But there were also many negative things about being sixteen. Such a thing was insecurity and the four ballet girls that had made fun of Aurora's body earlier, all felt it when she stood in the hallway together with them at a big New Years Eve party. Aurora had been so plain, boring even but there she stood in high strappy heels and a pink sequin dress. She looked like the pop princess she was about to be and the teenage boys dropped their jaws when they looked at her. The other girls pretended not to notice how much attention she got and that made Aurora believe she had just imagined things. Roxy looked at her friend and felt a bit stupid in her black short dress. She looked not at all as hot as Aurora but tried to tell herself Aurora was more “girl pretty”, guys wouldn't see her as that hot.

“There’s so many people here,” said Aurora with a giggle. Roxy nodded a little and looked at three guys looking towards them, she stretched her back and pouted with her lips but when they walked closer it was obvious all three of them looked at Aurora. Aurora seemed oblivious to what was happening. This was her first real party and both she and Roxy had probably never believed she would be the girl everyone talked about. Two of the guys suddenly took Aurora's hands and pulled her close to them. 

“Where have you been all my life?” Said one of the guys and looked her up and down. 

“That dress is amazing,” said another. Aurora giggled uncomfortably and looked down at her dress. 

“What's your name?”

“Aurora Lou,” she said embarrassed. 

“Aurora Lou!” Exclaimed the boys in choir. 

Roxy and two of her friends looked at them unamused. She probably needed to get used to this now. Aurora wasn't plain anymore, she was the most beautiful girl there and the next Friday her song with a famous DJ would be released. She had the boys and the world in her hands. 

Roxy continued to watch Aurora mingle around. The big eyed boys, the jealous girls but also the ones that just wanted to be close to her light. She didn't feel that jealous until midnight when she saw Aurora get her first kiss from Chase McCarthy. He had graduated last year and was the hottest guy in Roxy's school then. He was the guy every girl wanted. He made out with Aurora Lou, the girl who sang in the corridors and had a folder where she planned her first tour. He probably didn't know that Aurora hadn't been that hot a year ago, and that she didn't have Los Angeles' cutest nose then. When he a month later became Aurora's boyfriend she got used to the thought but wondered if he knew Aurora's nose was fake.

××× 

There is a point where all teenage girls learn there is a girl everything seems easier for, a girl who has looks, money and the best sort of life. Roxy learned to accept that Aurora was that girl and also saw that it was probably always the plan. It was easy making fun of a girl like Aurora in their teens, who prepared for her career down to the smallest details and laid all her waking time to just get better at her craft but it was also the kind of person that would succeed. Aurora had already decided she would succeed. 

Roxy learned to stand behind her both figuratively and literally as her background dancer. If she was honest she knew she would never have the energy to do all the hard work Aurora did and that she probably wouldn't have worked as a dancer if it wasn't for Aurora but she was a bit too proud to confess that. 

Roxy put all the time Aurora put on her career to party and find the perfect guy, or so she thought he was. She met him when she was 18 and he was 23. He was tall and handsome and studying to become a surgeon. He was her Dr. Dreamy and only hers. He wasn't interested in Aurora at all and often called her a diva even if she wasn't. He had never wanted to be around her so he didn't know Aurora was the kind of girl who gave up her seat to a stranger just to suddenly be without a seat herself. Roxy loved Aurora and saw her goodness but was glad her boyfriend didn't. 

While her own relationship with her boyfriend evolved smoothly to a grown up relationship she saw her friend struggle. Aurora got together with another young artist, Timmy Laurent and nothing went the way she wanted with him. Roxy hated to see her struggle like that and wished that she would meet a good guy soon but when she finally did… Roxy didn't react as she had thought…

××× 

“He's much older than you!” She said, shaking her head. Aurora, her and three other friends sat around a table in an Italian night club. Aurora had walked by some guy in the line she recognized and now wanted to talk to. An older guy she admired and also thought was sexy, he wasn't at all so stereotypical pretty as Timmy. 

“Who cares about that! He just has experience!” said their friend Erica with a pointed look towards Aurora. Aurora smiled with a blush. Roxy could be a bit annoyed at Erica, it was Aurora's friend from the start and she thought she could be too loud and vulgar. Roxy believed Aurora hadn't dared to tell Erica about her story with guys, how they all had broken her heart and left her in crumbles. It started with Chase thinking she was a workaholic and left her for a girl at his gym. Then it was Timmy who was a serial cheater and when they had a break she was with Philip that abused her mentally, so much her father had forbidden him to contact her anymore. 

Roxy believed Aurora wouldn't talk with anyone else than her about it and was irritated that Erica made everything sound so easy. Aurora's lovelife wasn't easy. 

Roxy really believed Aurora would listen to her and let the guy be but when she had walked off from the dance floor she saw Aurora sit on a low couch together with a tall guy dressed in black. He had his hand on her thigh and Aurora looked at him with big eyes, an attribute she and the guy shared. While Aurora had big chestnut eyes framed by long lashes, he had big green eyes that instead were framed by shadows from his prominent eyebrow bone. They had a similar expression on their faces; big curious eyes and a small almost blushing smile. Roxy looked at him intensely. He wasn't her type but she could see he had something and he was probably as tall as her ex, the surgeon, who she had left when she realized he had failed his studies and moved home to his parents. 

“I think they look cute together and I get a good feeling looking at him. His jeans actually fit, his smile is kind and he has good arms…” said Erica with a smirk. She suddenly stood next to Roxy and sipped on a gin & tonic. Roxy looked at her a bit annoyed. 

“Aurora is fragile… She should keep away from men for a while…”

Erica made an amused exhalation.

“She has never even been with a man! Come on, this is good for her!” 

Roxy didn't say anything, just moved to the bar to order something. She looked at Aurora when she left the guy and felt pleased seeing her leave him behind but she got a bad feeling when he stood up and also walked out from the same door. He was taller than her ex and had a swagger in his steps. The people who knew the guy would have understood it was something temporary from a confidence boost by getting attention from Aurora but she saw his confident, laid back steps as a sign on how bad news he was.

××× 

Roxy sat in the limo home with the other girls, all of them except Aurora. She had texted Erica and told them she had already gone home with “company”. Roxy felt negative emotions in her chest while looking out from the window of the limo. She couldn't put a finger on if she was just worried for her or if it was something else. It felt weird Aurora had texted Erica instead of her but also that Aurora hadn't taken her advice to let the guy be. Now he was at their (Aurora's) house and she had no idea what they were doing. Aurora wasn't the girl to sleep with a guy the first time she met him and she wondered if he would take a no graciously. She had seen how guys looked at Aurora since they were sixteen and knew it wouldn't be a good idea for her to take a guy home that she didn't know. 

In the house the girls could see some signs of a man being in there but it was quiet and dark so they guessed he was behind Aurora's closed bedroom door. Roxy looked at the whiskey on the coffee table and shook her head. It was typical Aurora to get a bit too comfortable with a guy fast, she was naive and had high thoughts about people. She stopped outside of Aurora's bedroom and listened if she could hear something but it was completely silent. 

“What are you doing?” Whispered one of the other girls that was on her way to her bedroom. Roxy licked her lips and shook her head. 

“I'm just worried…” 

The girl nodded. They knew that Roxy was Aurora's oldest friend and most often seemed to know better than Aurora about what she needed. The girl let Roxy listen outside of Aurora's door but as soon as Roxy was alone her curiosity took over and carefully she pushed down the door handle. 

The scene behind the door was sweet, even if she didn't really want to see it that way. The man laid on his back on the right side of the bed, facing the door. Half way on top of him laid Aurora under the silky cover, her cheek pressed against his chest while both of his big hands laid on her bum over the cover. It looked like they were used to sleeping together. Roxy looked at Aurora's face. She slept relaxed and heavy, even snoring lightly. Roxy then looked at the man. He had several attributes that were similar to Aurora, even if they weren't anything alike. His nose was upturned and his lips full. He had model high cheekbones that the little light in the room reflected on. He was beautiful. Roxy had always liked classic handsome men and this guy was that in some ways but had also attributes that she otherwise would see as unattractive; the deep set eyes, the high forehead, but it just made this man interesting to look at. She looked at him a few seconds too long and maybe he felt it because he moved suddenly, scratching his cheek but then laid his hand on Aurora's bum again. Aurora followed in his motions, like she already knew his moving pattern and rubbed her nose against his chest and smiled a bit in her sleep. 

Roxy closed the door with a beating heart. She stood a moment outside of the door, processing what she had seen. They looked like a couple in love but they had just met that night. Roxy felt the bad feeling in her stomach and interpreted it as a sign that this guy was bad, this guy was nothing for Aurora. 

××× 

Bill. Bill Skarsgård. Bill Istvan Günther Skarsgård. 

Roxy knew his whole name now. It wasn't hard to find out. As soon as she found out he was an actor named Bill his name and biography was just a google search away. Aurora had told them he was 40, separated and a father to three girls, she found the same thing online. There wasn't anything of importance answering why he had separated with his kids’ mother, the only thing she could find was that she was a few years older than him and the break up didn't seem to surprise his fans. 

She looked at him while he laid on a sun bed by the pool with them. They were still in Italy together and he had been over almost every day since two weeks back. Aurora had invited him in and changed the dynamic in the group. She was always close to him and acted in ways Roxy hadn't seen before. She had always seemed unsure and eager to please with other guys but with him she dared to be herself with a constant smile on her lips. She laid more or less on top of him in the sun bed while he was reading out of a thick book. It looked like Aurora slept with her nose pressed against the side of his neck but he just continued to read, like it was a small kitten lying on him instead of a woman. 

Roxy stood up and walked towards him. Just like all of them she wore swimwear. Bill looked up at her and smiled a little questioning, he didn't give her that from head to toe look Aurora's exes seemed to give every girl they met. 

“Is she awake?” Roxy asked and pointed to Aurora. Bill laid his book on the ground and looked down at Aurora. 

“I think the light is off completely,” he said with a smirk then looked up at Roxy. Roxy looked at his face for a few seconds but looked away. She wanted to ask him what he wanted with Aurora, if she could trust him but while she stood there it felt silly and if she had understood him correctly he wouldn't want to talk with her about Aurora when Aurora wasn't present in the conversation. Roxy wondered if he was just smarter and better at manipulation than Aurora's exes or if he was a good guy. While looking at him she became more and more sure it was the first option, he made her feel strange. 

“Roxy? Was it something?” He asked kindly while carefully moving Aurora's leg from his hip. Roxy looked at him again. He gave her a friendly smile but not at all as big as the one he always gave Aurora. 

“Ehm… I just wondered if Aurora is okay…” she said and he nodded a little. “Yeah, I will wake her soon. I just want to finish this chapter,” said he with a smirk, like she was his baby. Roxy smiled unsure. For the people around she looked like a worried friend but she had also another worry in her body she pushed away. 

A few minutes later Bill woke Aurora up and she straddled his hips. They didn't notice that Roxy watched them. His big hands dragged down Aurora's back, down to her hips. Aurora teasingly moved her hips and you could instantly see its effect by Bill's expression. He laughed and bit his lip. His face was so different when he looked at Aurora compared to when he looked at her. His eyes were hooded and almost sleepy and when Aurora moved her hips again he looked at her body greedily. His eyes were dark and his expression sexy. For a few seconds Roxy's mind got as dark as Bill's gaze. Perfect Aurora had of course found the perfect guy now… 

××× 

Roxy laid wall to wall with Aurora's bedroom in the house's second floor. She and the other girls had been out dancing while Aurora got the house alone for dinner with Bill. It was obvious what Aurora's idea with the night was but Roxy had also overheard her speak with Erica and how a bottle of lube had shifted hands. 

It had been quiet when they came home but after just an hour of sleep a sound woke Roxy up. First she thought it was a cat crying after attention but the cat started to sound more and more like Aurora. It sounded a bit pained but then she giggled and a man chuckled almost mockingly. In the same beat as Aurora's moaning Roxy heard the sound of skin slapping against skin. It sounded gross but Aurora's moaning was also alarming. She had heard her before, with Timmy and it didn't sound anything like this, this was much higher in pitch and some times it was dragged out like she had stepped on a piece of lego while trying to stop herself from cursing. 

Roxy laid her pillow over her head to try to shut the sounds out but then another sound increased. Bill's sounds. First his moans sounded just like a rumble through the wall, so deep it mostly just felt like a vibration but as it got louder, it also became higher in pitch. It sounded sensual and soft, like an ocean breeze. Roxy wanted to pretend as if she didn't want to hear but she really just wanted to listen to those soft moans and his low chuckle. When Aurora's sounds got higher again, together with the hammering from the headboard against the wall Roxy swallowed dryly. She had a pain in her chest that got worse from the beat from the headboard against the wall. She needed to speak with Aurora tomorrow. This was so unlike her, this wasn't the Aurora she knew. 

××× 

Kisses and hugs. Sweet smiles and laughter. Him explaining politics and philosophy for her. She was trying to teach him how to play the piano. Everything was so sugar sweet but then it was also the sexual tension, the sneaky hands and the loud moaning. It was just too much. 

Roxy didn't really know why she continued to be close to them. It was painful, especially when she wanted to be close to her best friend's boyfriend while his behavior towards her grew colder every time they met. He was an actor but he was bad at concealing his irritation with her, or he didn't care to hide it anymore. 

He was 40, had three childrens and sometimes was on the line to being rude to her. It wasn't a guy she would fall for in normal cases and not a guy she would think her best friend to be around. She was just worried for her friend, that was what it all was about. Nothing else. 

“No, I think he's weird. And the whole situation… I mean she has been with two rappers and now she's with him. Sure, he's handsome and all that but it will never work. She will get bored of him and then he probably will show his true colors,” said Roxy with a shrug. She had left Aurora's house at the same time as Michelle, Aurora's assistant and they walked to the neighborhood’s gate together. They had talked openly with each other many times, most often about Aurora, that they could be quite annoyed with. 

“Weird?” Asked Michelle carefully and looked down at the ground. 

“You know, one moment he is so silent, the next he's so loud. It's totally psychopath behavior.” 

Michelle laughed a little and looked up at the younger woman. 

“Bill is far from a psychopath, he might play it well but he is really grounded.” 

Roxy furrowed her brows and gave Michelle an examining look.

“How do you know?” 

Michelle smirked and shook her head to herself. 

“We dated for a while. I actually thought it would become something serious but then he met Aurora… But he hasn't told her. He isn't a psychopath but obviously an asshole.” 

Roxy looked at her with big eyes. She couldn't believe it, that the world could be that small. 

“I have photos,” Michelle stressed, she could see Roxy didn't believe her. 

“Let me see.” 

“I don't have them on this phone…” 

Roxy gave her a look, showing clearly she didn't believe her. 

“I do have them! I can send you them!” 

When Roxy was home in her own home she got a message from Michelle. She hadn't lied because there the picture was, the picture of her and Bill in an intimate kiss. She sat down on the couch in shock. He really was an asshole. Aurora must have the worst luck to find the worst guys. Cheater, abusers and liars. This was also the thing that could break Aurora free from the guy, if it was used the right way. If Roxy just showed it to her she knew she must explain how she had gotten the picture and then Aurora would find out Bill just had lied, not been cheating. She needed to use it so it seemed like he was also a cheater, that would make Aurora break up with him, nothing else would, Aurora was too forgiving. She looked at the picture and tried to come up with a plan and at the same time justify what she would do. She just wanted the best for her best friend. Bill wasn't the guy for her. 

××× 

Andrew sat with a hand over his mouth with the picture of Bill and Michelle in front of him. He was in his office with Roxy, Aurora's best friend, in front of him. 

“I don't know what to do… He's clearly a cheater but Aurora will never do anything about it…” said Roxy. Andrew stretched in his chair and made a doubtful face. 

“I felt he was bad news as soon as I met him. He is the sort of guy that could just wife her up and then it's over for her.” He was silent a while before adding: “and she doesn't want that.” 

Roxy nodded and waited for him to say something more. 

“There are already rumors about her being pregnant… I can use this too… If she doesn't listen. It feels a bit mean but what should we do? Clearly she doesn't know what’s for her own good. I miss her time with Timmy, he really made her a better artist.” 

Roxy swallowed hard because she didn't think that all. Maybe this was on the line of being a great friend and a bad friend but she wanted her to be happy and she wasn't happy with Timmy, far from it. Roxy just wanted her to be with someone else. Not Bill. He could go back to Sweden and become forgotten, both by Aurora and herself. 

“I’ll fix this Roxy, otherwise we will come up with something else to get that guy out. She doesn't listen anymore. She seems to believe she knows best now. I don't know what she believes, she's still 24 even if her boyfriend is a man.” 

Roxy nodded a little, even if she also was 24. She just agreed so he would do the work and make Bill disappear and make her and Aurora's friendship easy again. 

Andrew used the rumors about pregnancy and cheating as a fuel to make Aurora leave Bill but he didn't even hear that made any difference. Instead she pushed him even further away and it started to feel like she would fire him soon. He really needed to do something. 

Roxy heard from Aurora about the picture and how Aurora spoke like she never believed Bill would cheat. They were too in love. She started to feel powerless and at the same time it got harder and harder to even see Bill, but at the same time she didn't want anything else. Seeing him was the only thing that felt like it mattered. 

One July day she visited Aurora with the excuse she needed help with a guy she was seeing, even if in reality she wasn't dating. She knew it was Bill's birthday in just a bit more than a week and the couple would go to Italy in just a few days. She had the thought of giving him something, something small and thoughtful to make him understand she cared but couldn't come up with anything. She realized she didn't even know what he liked and felt awfully stupid. 

Aurora had no idea she would come, especially because they hadn't had as much contact for a time. As Aurora's best friend she had gained the trust to go into her house with her fingerprint and used that trust that day to let herself in. It was empty in the house and she looked around the big house but didn't meet anyone other than Aurora's dogs, until she looked out towards the pool. Bill laid alone on a sun bed with closed eyes. He had just bathing shorts on, a pair much shorter and tighter she had seen him in before. He was still wet after a swim and his hair was pushed back. He was probably unaware someone else was in the house because he stuffed a hand down the shorts to correct his member. Roxy didn't know what to do or look. She stood there and just stared at him even if all alarms rang in her head. It wasn't okay at all. Suddenly his phone rang on the table next to him and he answered with a bright smile. It was obvious with that smile who was calling. Roxy hid behind a counter so Bill wouldn't accidentally see her. 

“Babe, babe.” He laughed and hummed. “You know that's just bullshit. You're really clever even if you don't have high school grades… No, not as smart as me but that doesn't prove anything.” He laughed and then made a low chuckle, an in love chuckle. “Hit him then. It's okay for me. You know how to do it… And you're really sexy when you fight.” 

Roxy closed off. The conversation was intimate, nothing she should hear. It was proof they were just as in love when they believed no one saw or heard them. 

She snuck out of the house. She should just let them be but instead she fantasized about him talking that sweetly to her. No more weird side eyes and irritated sighs, he should just give her all that love. 

××× 

The lie had been the worst thing she had done her whole life. Aurora had been her friend for almost ten years and she had done everything in her power to steal her boyfriend. A boyfriend that had never even liked her and was crazy in love with her friend. It was idiotic, evil and desperate. 

Roxy talked to the press and told a gossip journalist she was sleeping with Bill Skarsgård, Aurora Lou's boyfriend and after that she had tried to kiss him. She was a desperate mess who lost her job, her best friend and many other friends at the same time. 

She retracted the confession and it never became an article but she didn't succeed in saving herself from the fall. After Aurora's new manager had fired her she became an aerobic instructor and lost all the luxury that being a friend to Aurora, had come with. 

She would always regret the things she did but it wasn't Aurora she thought about the most. It was Bill. The day she found out they had gotten married was a day of sorrow.

× 

[cinnamoncandyyysblog]

I wasted my wishes on you (first part)

⚠️ Warning: incest, stepcest, fem!reader, possessive!brother, dark content, toxic behavior, fluff

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You and Eren had always been very close, you were only two years apart so beside being brother and sister you have always been great friends. Since early age you played together, teased each other, made your parents angry... you strengthened each other trying to always be together, looking for a place where you could exist hidden from the whole world. Eren had always taken care of you, he felt compelled to do so because you grew up in a house where you couldn't live your childhood, there was never space and love for you. You always saw your brother as the only person you could trust, the only one who cared about you.

But now you were 18 and Eren was 20, you are no longer children and you are no longer united as you once were. Growing up you realized that your brother wasn't immune as he wanted you to believe, all the things that had happened to him because of your family made him cold, always angry and apathetic towards everyone and the world; he tried to stay at home as little as possible, taking refuge with his friends or at the university. You, on the other hand, were trapped within the walls of your home, you didn't go out a lot and didn't have many friends, but the thing that made you feel worse was having lost the relationship that you and your brother once had.You and Eren spoke little, sometimes you didn't see each other for days or you only greeted each other when you met in the corridors of the house.

.

It’s Saturday night and you are playing computer games while talking with your friends.

Today was Mikasa's birthday, a childhood friend of your brother who by force majeure had also become someone you know well; she was nice but you weren't very close even though she often was around your house together with Armin, another dear friend of your brother. Between you there has always been a bit of tension and jealousy, given that Mikasa had always been in love with Eren and you knew it, but although your brother has never shown to feel anything more than friendship for her you were still jealous of the relationship they had, since Eren spent much more time with her than with you. You don't think Mikasa wanted to invite you but probably Armin had insisted and even if the idea of ​​seeing her don’t excite you that much, it is an opportunity to be with your brother.

While you are playing someone knocks on the door,

<< it’s open>> it’s Eren, who enters your room with his usual apathetic expression.

<< tonight we are going out at 9 pm, okay? >> he asks as he watches you with indifference.

<<mhhh ok>> you say as you continue playing without taking your eyes off the video game.

<< try not to wear anything inappropriate, I don't want Jean or Connie to spend the evening staring at you drooling >> he says as he keeps staring at you waiting for your eyes to meet.

<<what do you mean by inappropriate?>>, you ask to tease him a bit while you pause the game.

<<you know what I mean>> he says as a smile forms on his face and his eyes begin to scan your body causing you to blush.

You feel nervous around him, your heart starts racing and your belly churns, but you still can't wait to be with him.

<<Jean and Connie don't drool over me and anyway I've already decided to wear that dress>>, you say pointing to a black dress hanging in the wardrobe.

Eren approaches it, <<it's a bit short for my taste but I don't think I'll convince you to wear anything else…>> he says while chuckling.

You look at him with a defiant look that he returns immediately.

<< you'll be gorgeous tonight, everyone will stare at you >> he smirks while he looks at you waiting for your reaction to his provocations.

<<I don't care to be stared by all, not by everyone... you know>>, you underline the last sentence while trying not to take your eyes off the green that were pressing on you.

<< so who do you want to stare at you while you wear that too short dress? >> he flirty asks you while coming closer to you.

His hand moves a lock of hair behind your ear and then slides on your chin.

<<you know>>, you say blushing as you lower your head to look at your shaking hands.

<< I want you to tell me, say it out loud >>, he lifts your face up so he can see you blush.

He loves seeing you in trouble because of him, seeing you beg for his attention and his caresses.

You look him in the eyes and try to work up your courage and answer, but you weren't good at playing this way with him, and he knew it too well.

<< you… you Eren >> you stammer as you escape from his grip and lower your gaze again.

Your brother giggles << you're so shy, it’s so adorable >> he says as he moves away from you to leave the room.

<<Eren why don't we spend more time together? You're always busy… >> the words come quickly from your mouth, you've wanted to ask him for a long time but you were ashamed, you didn't want to seem so in need of his attentions.

<< do you miss me so much? >> he asks in a joking tone while a smile appears on his face, satisfied to have received that question that he was waiting for so much.

You don't answer but you look at him sad.

<<hey I'm sorry, I have so many things to do for college... I'll try to be with you more>>, he tries to reassure you while the mocking smile that was printed on his face intent on provoking you turns into a sincere and kind smile.

<<but do you want to spend some time with me?>> you ask becoming redder than you already were while trying to make yourself smaller and smaller by bringing your knees to your chest.

Eren approaches you sitting on the bed while he hugs you to him << of course I want to be with you, I'm sorry I can't show it to you >> he says while planting a kiss on your forehead.

Your hands reach behind his neck as your face is buried in his chest. Often when you were little Eren made you stay in his arms, you felt safe and loved smelling him while he held you close.

You detach yourself from him and look at his green eyes, fixed on yours… he's so beautiful and perfect for you.

Your gaze ends up on his lips that you want so much to kiss even though you know you shouldn't.

You loved your brother, he was your blood, you grew up together, you share the same house, the same parents, the same story, but what you felt for him wasn't just brotherly love, you wanted more, you wanted to be able to be a confidante, a best friend, a lover…

Even Eren's gaze leaves your eyes to lower at your lips; you are a few centimeters away from each other but neither of you wants to reset the distance between you, or rather you don't have the courage to do so. Although it wasn't the first time that your lips joined in a kiss every time you are so close to him your heart seems to explode. He kisses you on the cheek and then slowly touches your lips to leave a light kiss on them. Your hands dip into his hair as excitement begins to build in you.

<<I missed you>>, these three words come faintly from your brother's mouth, who in the meantime left you a kiss on the forehead and then held you in a hug.

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I just wanted to add that English is not my native language so if I have made any mistakes please let me know. Thank you <3

[heretyc]

I am in love with all of your Val content! I joined the Outlast fandom very late, which is especially unfortunate when my favs are Marta and Val, two underrated little rats. Do you have any spare Marta HCs laying around, perhaps? Maybe Val and Marta HCs about their relationship? This doesn't mean to be a request, more so a 'if you've got it, may I see it?' :)

[slams hands into table]

Anon. Baby. Babydoll. Baby baby BABY. Of course I do ;)

I 100% agree that both of them are underrated little ratta tooties and deserve a lot more attention. That tends to be a recurring theme with Red Barrels antagonists, unfortunately :( Like...come on. Y'all give Marta a badass looking weapon that can hold INCENSE [something I love irl, I ALWAYS have some on hand] and make her the worst antagonist to deal with on Nightmare/Insane, and you just...let her rot??? Nah. No. Never.

Red Barrels wasn't plentiful whatsoever with any backstories. Val was the chief deacon and Marta was Knoth's gal pal. This is all that's known. We are THIRSTY, RB. [I understand why, seeing as Outlast 2 was Blake's bitch, but still.]

Pre-Murkoff Marta 100% seems like a quiet woman who enjoys books and gardening when she isn't Knoth's guard dog, you feel? She'd love roses and cacti. Maybe she even hums to them. Flowers enjoy songs, you know.

If her garbs are at all reflective of her past, then she was a nun. She ain't got nun unless you've got buns, hun.

I wanna say they were civil beforehand. Friends? Maybe, sure. I can see that. Val tends to the children and Marta sticks to herself, though.

Going off of the assumption that Marta was a nun, she would be against sex before marriage. Post-Murkoff Val is her worst nightmare lmfao

This is 100% something that I've conjured, but I like to think that Knoth and Val were extremely close after Val became chief deacon, and this had made Marta jealous. When the whole Murkoff thing happens, Knoth worms his way into her head and lies about how important she is to him, simply because she didn't leave him after the whole orphan fiasco, and he wanted to take advantage of that. That, and because they were intimate. She's wrapped around his finger.

Remember the cut Val voicelines? The ones of them talking about how much Knoth had liked them more than he liked her? That's them trying to piss her off. She kills them out of anger, obviously

I can see Val trying to lure her over to their side, to be honest. She was just as wronged as Val, was.

She doubts Knoth sometimes. Doubts his words and doubts what she's supposed to do. She views her killings as sinful, and has to constantly reassure herself. If it wasn't for the fact that they go way back, I can see her attempt to stay out of it.

I'm just gonna say it: She deserved better. She sucks for even giving Knoth the time of day, and the murders, but in general...she was treated like dirt. Imagine this: One day your town becomes monstrous due to some towers that were spotted miles away, there's a plague, you're forced to murder citizens and old friends because your close friend thinks it's righteous, you're feared by everybody, you feel sinful, the chief deacon taunts the hell out of you and you eventually have to kill them, then you get impaled by a cross during a 'sotrm' while trying to get rid of the man who drove you batshit insane for hours. Fucking OUCH.

Get the girl a spa appointment, man. Hell, her and Val can go TOGETHER. Get matching manis.

I want Val and Marta to like each other Post-Murkoff, dammit. They can bond over things. Knoth's betrayal. Heavy metal crosses. Rosaries. Um...other things.

The Heretics are crafty. I like to think they make her custom incense if they ever became allies :)

[I hope these are a-okay for now...but now that you've mentioned Marta/Val..there are gears turning. And it's never too late to join a fandom! Welcome x]